2012 Resolution.

My hubby asked me to blog about my next year resolution. I realize I have been blogging all about my little girl lately. Oh well, I have stop travelling for a year since I was pregnant so definitely no travelling updates from me for a year. I just read back my resolutions for the 2011. Proudly to say that I have completed almost 80%. I am happy with that. The biggest achievement for myself this year will be my girl of course! Hey, to give birth is not that as easy as you think! The pain during delivery, the suffering confinement month and the non-stop sleep deprivation really makes me crazy!!! PLUS I went through 1 day of induction before my c-sec :(

A picture of my achievement!! This picture was taken after I woke up from my c-sec. Looking at my little one sleeping beside me, all the pains and suffers still worth it.

Alright, 2012 resolutions...herm I think it's gonna related to my family. I wanna be a better wife, better mummy, better daughter and a better daughter in law! Wow, 4 in 1 that's the hardest task, don't you agree??

Since I am full time mummy + housewife, I hope I can manage my duty better. Tarey's achievement will be my achievements as well. And I hope I get more praises or appreciations from my hubby as well.(Hubbie, if you see this, your words mean a lot to me!! With your words, I tend to get more inspirations!!)

Holidays for the year 2012, hubby had planned it. We will be going to Barcelona in April-in conjunction to celebrate my birthday. June to Amsterdam as highly recommended by a friend in Algiers and August to an island called Palma Majorca. I am not sure if we can go according to the plan. As you know, bringing a baby to travel is not as easy as thought. We just hope Tarey enjoys travelling as we do. Pray hard!

Maybe I should plan something for myself? Err...couldn't think of anything..perhaps more shopping for the year 2012!! Haha...

Love You Mama

Mama has been taking care of me very well. When I was bored, she will always be there for me (to entertain me at least!). She just do everything for me including preparing a glass of milk for me in the morning, afternoon and before sleep. She makes me feel I am a little spoiled before turning to be a mama soon in 3 months time. As a reward, I did a back massage for her few days ago and she really enjoyed it. Since then I tell myself  I should pamper her more with more massages. Just like what I read from maternity books, massage my baby everyday will be the greatest pleasure from me to baby. I want my mum to enjoy this pleasure too :)

Ups And Downs

My emotions was totally controlled by Him today. In just one day, I experienced sadness and hopes. I was very terrified and amazed. When I am too comfort in my life, I will feel insecure as well. I am worry that the happiness can be taken away anytime. I can't do anything but to face it. Peole say, live happily everyday and forget about the unhappiness or no matter happy or sad, life still go on, so why don't you enjoy your days happily? But can we easily do that?

Anyway...I am sure to leave my whole life to Him as I am sure he will love me forever as well.

Manila Bus Hostage

My heart got disturbed badly after watching the incident of Manila hostage. I cannot imagine if I am one of the hostages in the bus, what will I do or what will I ended up? I watched a few of the clips and I felt the so called SWAT team was really hopeless. They do not helped at all but instead hurted the hostages. Hubby and I wondered, there were times when they were so close to the hijacker while he was just hanging the gun on his body, why don't they just pull him out from the bus and get him to the ground???? What are they doing? They seems just chit chat with the hijacker. One of the victims head was being hurt by the police when they used a traditional way, a long hammer to break the window glass. Isn't that is another stupid action from the SWAT team?

Even though now the HK Government requested whatever reports from the Philiphines Government is useless anyway. It's no use crying over spilled milk. Those reports cannot help anything at all and Philiphine definitely will be in my banned list to visit. However being a Malaysian, I doubt our country policemen can handle the case well if it happens in Malaysia. I am so sorry to say that but I never trust our policemen at all. I prayed for the deceased so that they can rest in peace. It was so tragic and this is another real story that reflected us(hubby and I) to stay happily and appreciate the time we have for each other.

Another thing that makes me angry

Don't they look "idiot" to take pictures? Do you think it is cool?

Another batch of "idiot chicks"!

Sorry that the clip is in Mandarin, but by watching the clip, you should be able to understand the incident happended in the bus.

They were trying to summarise the whole incident.





















Life is too short. You will never know when is your last meal or when is your last time to see your family. Appreciate every moments you have now before it is too late.

Women Values

I was traveling to Wadi Rum last weekend and the road trip was about 4 to 5 hours. I cant sleep for the whole 4 hours so I ended up viewing the views that catch my sight along the highway. Most of the places is not develop where you still can see rubbish everywhere along the road. Thus came into my mind, Jordan should be rich as their currency is almost the same with Euro but from the view it doesn't show the way it is. The highway is bad and there is no fascinating views along the road. This is really giving a bad impression to the tourists.

There are some small stalls selling vegetables, fruits or drinks along the highway so that you can take a rest. And I met some local ladies who were wearing their traditional suits ( The long black dress) at the stall. The temperature was really hot that time and I was wondering how could they stand the hot wearing the dress. They were looking at me interestingly as I was only wearing a singlet and short pants. I am not sure if they thought that I should not wear like that or they were just jealous of me that I can dress like that in public. They give me a feeling that they are the traditional ladies who are low in values from their innocent eyes.

Women values in MiddleEast country are still low. I believe the ladies are trying to improve to gain their rights but it only happens in city and not around the country. For those ladies who never got a chance to move to the city, I believe they will never get a proper education and they are just wait to get married and obey to their husband till the last breath. I still heard some stories about the husband beated his wife or sexually abuse and the wife cannot do anything, not even lodge a report to the police. Or maybe the wife knew that even she lodge a complain also in vain because the police are man too, they are not going to help them.

I understand that it happens not only in MiddleEast but also in other countries but I think the rate should be higher in MiddleEast. I really hope there is an organization to help the poor women out there. In a same time, I am glad for what I am. At least, I get my proper education, have the rights to fight back, have the rights to say NO, have the rights to choose, or even show a black face to my husband when I am unhappy or angry.

Well, "different culture" is what I learned. You got to accept it. I am always wondering why people are looking down at women. I think women is the most wonderful creature on earth. Have you ever think that only women can help to continue the generations? Without women, what can men do to continue their species? When we were young, most of the time were taken care by the mother even though both mum and dad are working. Don't you agree that we will tend to forgot father's day rather than mother's day?

Some husband claim that they should have more power as they are the bread winner but have you ever think that you only think yourself are the bread winner? Who knows your wife can give a better living to the family when she works and husband staying at home taking care of the kids? And even your wife is a housewife should have respect from the husband and the society of course as they give up everything just to build a happy family at home and clean up your mess.

Anyway, everything will be good if we respect to each other, do not care if he is a man or woman, Ceo or garbage cleaner. "Respect" is something that we should learn. 

Picture taken in Dubai in 2009. How's our life will be if both of us are Arabian? Well, I think we will be bored covering ourselves with black and white dress everyday.

A Reason For Gifts!

I am sure that everyone of us here love to recieve gifts. When we were young, birthday presents was the only thing that we were longing for. And when we reached the teenager stage, we hope to get something during the valentines day! As we grow older and older, there are lots of reasons for a gift. Well, let me list it out:

1) Birthday present                                                         
2) Valentines present
3)Mother's day present (If you are a mother)
4)Wedding anniversary present (If you are married)
5)Dating anniversary ( Don't worry, even though you are not married, you still get your gift. For married lady, this is bonus!)
6)Christmas/ new year present
7) Chinese New Year present ( Yeah, if you are a chinese, you may request a present on the chinese people big day or maybe an angpow!)
8) Surprise present ( Ladies can always request to receive surprises from boyfriend or husband, just to make ourselves happy :) at least once a year )

So there you go, so many reasons for a gift. But maybe you will change your mind once you get married. I am thinking, if I continue to request 7 gifts a year, my husband might be bankrupt soon. Let's say for an average gift is about RM2k and that will be RM14k! We can do so much with this RM14K. And this RM14k is not including those trips when we go somewhere for a holidays. Hotel, food and shopping that could cost an average of RM5k at least, and of course depends where we go~ As for our Japan trip next month, the tour cost us about RM15k not including our extention stay in Tokyo.

And now, since I am no longer working, hubbie will be the only bread winner. I feel guilty to buy anything or request something which is not necessary but ladies like to shop!!! This is like a permanent illness with no treatments that can help. I wish I can back to the working society so that at least, I can afford something I like :) The bad thing is, I cant even afford to buy a present to my hubbie's coming birthday. I have money, but those cash are given by my husband. If I use that to buy a present for him, isn't that like he bought himself a present which chosen by me? I think I cook a lovely meal for him will be the best! My dillema solved.

2010 Resolutions

Everyone has new resolution for the coming year. Even though I am not working, I am not earning but I still have mine for next year. Before this, I listed it out on my yearly diary and to be frank I almost achieved all of my resolutions so I am happy. Maybe I am just lucky or maybe my aim or wish was not high which makes myself easily to achieve it :) And this time, I am gonna list it out here since I have started to blog. It took me 2 days to think about it while I was cooking, showering or even cleaning the floors. What will be my resolution for next year?

(My personal goals)
I am expecting to conceive next year! Well, both of us have planned to have a baby (bunny year) in 2011 which means I need to start conceiving next year. I feel a little worry + nervous + excited because getting pregnant is like something that gonna change my life and my body as well. I have been reading those pregnancy books this year just to make sure I am well prepared for it. Then only I know, getting pregnant is like a big project. Lots of preparation needed to do before my body is ready to carry the womb. I think this will be my biggest resolution!

I hope I can get closer to GOD. I always claim myself a christian but I am not baptisted yet. I still go to temple because of my late brother. All this while, I think He really loves me and tolerate with my beliefs. He still continue showers me with happiness though I still pray at the temple for my brother. Maybe He understand that I am with him but just something in the past that I couldn't let it go. Thanks for the patience and I hope I will get more closer to you so that I am more complete.

Haha..and I am looking foward to change my attidude as well. Of course turn down those bad one and preserve the good one. I very easily get mad that will make my hubbie suffers a little. Why I said a little because my mood swing really fast that after got mad for 20 minutes I will be happy afterthat. And because I am planning to get pregnant, I need to have happy mind and stay calm in order to carry a healthy baby. I need to give a good example and good mummy reputation to my future children :) This could be my hardest resolution but I am definitely going to work it out.

I wanna start baking! Basically, I would like to start a few years ago but no time and no owen in the house makes me feel sluggish. My apartment here equipped with owen so I think it's time to learn some baking. As a beginner, I still prefer to learn from a teacher rather than from online recipes cause my knowledge of baking is near to zero.

Besides baking, I would like to kick start on forex too. Herm..we only invested in unit trusts and hubbie's ex company stock, so hubbie told me it's time we should learn to invest in forex. As usual, we will need to review, analyse and research before we start to invest. I think this gonna take some time but definitely will be one of  my intention next year.

My personal goals for next year seems like too simple? Haha..that's what I am planning to do and it's hard to achieve too. For example: To bake a cake is easy but to bake a delicious cake is never too easy!And to get rid of bad habit (hot temper) is hard too! To me it's "medium- hard" to achieve but will try my best though.
And I realise, I no longer wish for promotion, increment or bonus as usual. Or maybe I do because if a family member added to us, I consider promoted too!(Promoted become a mummy) And I don't mind if hubbie wanted to give me increment or bonus..haha

(Travelling) We aim to visit as many country as we can, so next year we will try to continue our journey!
Japan- The plan to Japan is kinda confirm. We actually planned Japan for our honeymoon but due to time and money constraints, we delay it to next year. I have a high expectation for this and even plan after the trip then only start to conceive :)


Maldives- I slowly in love with oceans. Maybe we can go for a short trip in between. I believe 3 or 4 days will be sufficient to cover the trip.


USA- I wanted to visit my sis home since few years back. She even had moved from New Jersey to Houston but I still never visit her yet. We always ended up meet up in Sandakan or Kuala Lumpur. Well, the visa is a bit troublesome and I will need to see if we have the time or maybe I can go alone if hubbie permitted to do so.

Australia- Gold Coast will be our 1st choice if we get to visit Aussie. Hubbie's second bro studying in Queensland, so definitely will visit him one day or maybe wait until his graduation year. OMG, that will be 5 more years to go. I think Australia is big enough that we need to spend at least 10 days coz friends and familly are located at different states.


HongKong- I went to HongKong twice, but still hope to return for some shopping spree and their delicious food. Besides, tickets to HongKong is cheap if you are able to get those zero tickets from Air Asia. I am gonna be extra alert for promotions from AirAsia next year.


Haha..my travelling plan seems too pack. First, hubbie do not have such long leaves to cover all the places and secondly we try to save some money in the same time. But anyway, a Japan trip will be enough to fulfill my travelling plan and others will be bonus!

And, as usual I will wish/hope that all family members will be in good health, business running smooth, good results for government exams and everything is alrite. I know I may sound greedy but in my thoughts I can wish as many as I want, so faster make urs too!

Gratitude

2009 almost come to the end, this year is a good year to me indeed. The biggest celebration of the year will be my wedding of course. I praise the Lord as it went out smoothly and everything was great, giving me a great memory. We have travelled to Dubai, Taiwan, Egypt, London and Jordan this year giving me the great time of all. I never travel that frequent previously so thanks to hubby for bringing me along while he is working for his projects. Thanks to GOD too, that continously blessing us with health, happiness and fortune. I am just too happy this year.

Though I am happy, but deep in my heart I feel worry as well. Maybe you will wonder, what am I worry since I am happy? I am worry that one day I will lost all this happiness. Why am I thinking this way? Maybe I was frightened by my late brother incident. Deep in my heart I felt relunctant to accept the fate that my brother had an accident and passed away. I keep asking and wondering why do this happen to my family. Isn't it cruel to my parents to receive such news? They are kind and helpful, especially my papa. I just cant believe and feel unhappy. Year by years gone, I have no choice but to accept and indirectly give me a feeling of unsecure in my life that I might receive bad news anytime. Maybe I am not mature enough but I am just scare.

I try to enjoy my life everyday, hoping that everything will be fine. I do not need happy surprises everyday but I just hope everyone especially my hubbie and family members in good health. To face an unexpected lost is really pain :(

Every year when come to the end, people will try to recall what they have done and will have new resolution for the coming year. I do not know yet what's my next year resolution but all I hope is to be more confident in my life and live happily with my hubbie forever and ever. And of course not to forget my dearie parents to have a healthy body so that I can take good care and treat them well with no time limits. I will always open my mind with this poem:

Let me arise and open the gate,
to breathe the wild warm air of the heath,
And to let in Love, and to let out Hate,
And anger at living and scorn of Fate,
To let in Life, and to let out Death.
-  Violet Fane

I think today I am a bit emo but I feel better after wrote this out. At least is a good way for me to release the pressure inside my heart. Till then, I ended up this post with a relief smile and wishes you all Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!!

Have a great year ahead and may the journey of your life be fragrant with new opportunities, your days be bright with new hopes and your heart be happy with love!

Wedding Flash

December seems like a month of romance, I am so happy to see lots of wedding pictures uploaded in Facebook. Well, wedding only happen once in a lifetime. Definitely the bride and bridegroom will try to give their best to their wedding night, hoping that it can be a memorable event in their life and also to their honour guests.

As for us, I decided to make a wedding flash to be display in our wedding night on March 2009. The flash will show how do we know each other from the start until we decided to get engaged. Though the flash is quite expensive but I think its really worth the money. Like now, whenever I am unhappy due to some arguement, I will watch our wedding flash again to remind me all the good times that we had and shouldn't argue or unhappy to each other because of something which is not worth. The flash is quite simple due to my last minute decision. I only gave about 1 month for the team to complete this and they are part timer! They are students from one animation college and I was their 1st customer. I would say the flash at least meet my minimum expectation. Have a look and what do you think?

The Day You Went Away

Today my godsister told me that her aunty's husband passed away out of a sudden. Well this is an unexpected as he just happily visited Sandakan and returned to Johor Bahru. This case reminded me about my brother.

Yes, I used to have an elder brother but he passed away for about 5 years ago. Time pass really fast that I don't even notice that he had left us for about 5 years. I still remember clearly the scene when I visited him in the hospital once I arrived in Sandakan. My heart feels pain and the pain somehow cannot be explained easily until you feel it urself. My brother used to be a very healthy person and looking at him with hurts everywhere sleeping on the bed makes me feel hoping that it was a dream! I just cant bare to see him suffering like that. He had to depend on the machine to help him breathing and he can never open his eyes. I talked to him, I am not sure if he can listen to me as the doctor told me that he was unconcious but I can see tears from the edge of his eyes. I just feel miserable and do not what to do.

I went home after that and once I reached home, papa came to hug me and cried. I never see my papa cry and that was the 1st time. I saw my mummy sitting quietly in the sofa that i knew she must be feeling helpless and do not know what she can help his son. From that moment, I knew that I must be strong to support both of them or else no one can help them. And from that day, my status in the family change as well. I seems to become the leader of the house that whatever they do or plan to do must get a supportive remark from me.

My brother suffered in ICU for about 2 weeks before he pass away. I am still Ok with this because at least he slowly let me accept that he failed in the battle. I can see that he suffered a lot too or maybe to let him go was the best for him. I have tried so hard to make him awake but it just in vain. Until today, I do not know how did the accident happen and the policeman is just useless. I really do not expect much from them but they are really terrible.

From this incident, I did learned some lessons.

1) Do not waste time to seek help from buddhist bomoh. I do not know how should I address them, but I do really think they just like bomoh. What they told me seems so stupid and do not bring any help at all. I still did what as instructed by them because my brother's girlfriend and my brother himself is a buddhism. I am just trying to respect what they had believe so far.
2) Good friends are like precious. We have lots of friends and neighbours came to our house to ask about the progress. My brother's accident was out in the local newspaper and seems like it was the HOT topic during that time. For those who came and ask about the progress, I can see that some do no feel sad at all. They just came to see how suffer or how unhappy we were.
3) I should believe in GOD and seek for his help. Due to my brother is a buddhism, I was ashamed to seek help from GOD.
4) Live as it there is no tomorrow. I know this sounds weird but I am just trying to say that we should live our life happily and do something for yourself. Do not think that you are young enough to delay ur dreams or you still have lots of time to spare. Accident happens anytime. You will definitely regret!
5) Love your family more. I was regretted that I do not spend enough time to care my brother.

I just hope he is happy in his world now.

UP by Disney Pixar

I just watched this movie alone in the middle of the night. I have heard of this movie few months ago, and always wanted to watch it but hubby said he cant find any source for UP. We didn't watch it in cinema because we were in Egypt when the movie is up. Thanks GOD, finally I found it in Amman here. There is a guy selling pirated DVDs at the street (beside got policeman but they just don't care) and I saw UP! I feel so happy that I finally can get it.

I feel so touched that Carl trying his best to keep his promise to his wife. Both Carl and Ellie are lovely and really teach the audience to love their partner forever no matter what happens. They are inseperable, sharing every moment of joy and sadness together. And the house is lovely with balloons! I do think that we need to watch comic sometimes, though the scene seems not realistic, but we dont have to be realistic all the time! Is good to have dreams, maybe the dreams might sounds stupid but I do believe people with dreams only will  find it worth to be still alive in this earth.

I am gonna ask hubby to watch this movie and I dont mind watching it again for the second time. There is somehting that hubby should learn from Carl :)

I hope my dream house can be fly up by balloons too! It is much more nicer than hot air balloon.

Russell, he is such a cute boy. I hope my future son will be like him!

The fancy collar that Dug's wearing is something that I need so that I will not phobia of dogs anymore. At least, I know when the dog is going to bite me.

I love this movie and I hope hubby will keep his little promise to me too. Darling, please don't "loosing air" around the house. The smell is killing!